Holding Hands

Hi.

It’s been a month?

Yes.

I’m in my room. It’s cold and my feet are trembling and my hands are freezing cold. The room is a mess – like a five year old hair…a mess! So is my hair. :D Just woke up from my quick nap. So I thought I’ll blog first. I miss blogging. So, I’ll try to insert this entry from a busy day. Hope you like it.

God has been holding my hand. And I continue to hang on. It’s been a month and the days are just so fast! Can I do this? Well, I can’t turn back. I’m doing everything that I can, but it seems it’s not enough. Sometimes I want to cry because there’s always a day that I tend forget the essence of this journey. But I keep on telling myself that God is there constantly guiding me, pulling me back whenever I got out of track. Did I mention I started this journey with Him? Now you know.

Every morning I wake up on my own, I look around and I realize that I am not alone. The ray of sunlight passing through the window blinds, I see Him with it. I smile and say, “It’s another day walking with You.” I’ll jump out of bed and act as if it’s in the middle of the day – energize! It’s just so cruel that I can’t see the city below me (damn construction) but I can always look up the sky - blue as ever and reminds me of life that seems to go on and on like the clouds passing by.

For every 86400 seconds, God is constantly telling me, “Every little Prayer counts.”

Not LUCK but PRAYERS Izza! *wink*

Hopeful girl

kkcg

Re-blogged 2: Since I'll be gone

Since I cannot blog that much soon. I'll just be very busy. Here are some blogs that you might like to read - YES YOU! You may have skipped or have just started reading my blogs, so here are some blogs that is close to my heart. Read them and you'll know more about me. :)

Life's no Fairytale

Metamorphically I Dream

Moving so fast the world spins

Before September Ends

Vorte Bonheur Sera Toujours Pour Moi

Soundtrack of my Summer

Note to self

Sun, water, and a scoop of ice cream makes a dreary afternoon fun

Random questions waiting for random answers

86400 seconds

shoebox of photographs

...but yeah, these are just the chosen ones, I've other blogs. Read them if you have time, and I accept comments too. :))

very soon

hopefully girl

kkcg

not luck but PRAYERS

I don't like saying “goodbyes”, I would rather say “see you soon.”

To my readers thank you for reading and following my blogs. This will mark my last blog as of this month and I might not be blogging for the following days...months...but surely if something triggers me to blog, I will!

Right now all I could say is that, I'm facing a new quest and it is something I've been chasing and I'm closing near to it. If before I was just taking tiny steps, now I'm leaping...running...running to reach to the top of that dream. It's all about the choices I have made and to be made, and the chances that I have took and about to take...all of these will only determine my destiny. All I need is strength, confidence, the focus and...not luck BUT PRAYERS. And whatever tomorrow brings, I know God will walk me through it.

My dream is to be your dream, MY DREAM - you know what you are.

I'm hoping, believing and LIVING that dream now.

I know I have MY GOD watching over me. He knows my past, my present and my future. I will ask no more...but only for this dream to be able to live in.

I believe.

I hope.

And I PRAY.

hopeful girl

kkcg

ps: please include me in your prayers...every little prayer counts. :)

My life's in a suitcase

I've got my life in a suitcase ready to run, run, run away...

Remember when you were young you were asked what you want to be when you grow up? I would always say an Architect! When I was

young I'm always fund of drawing buildings, skyscrapers and drawing floor plans for my dream house. Ha. I remember "reading" architecture magazines and I would say "I want this!" - well, I still do that until now. Laugh.

I was in sixth grade where I realized what I really wanted to be...and that is to be an Engineer. I am amazed of how the world hugged technology. Of how math and science changed the way we live. If math is hated by everyone, I for once loved it, though math and I doesn't have that chemistry I wanted, I was still patient and I tried to understand.

Anyway, counting the years, I guess it's been 10 years since that realization. And now, here I am with my life in a suitcase and all I could do is hope and pray. I'm getting nearer than expected. PLEASE! Oh prefixes.This is it. As I step foot on that plane two days from now, there's no looking back, instead focus on what's in front of me. Yes. Focus is the key and Prayer is the answer.

If I have said, "I'll leave everything completely up to God". This time, I'm going to help Him because I'm pretty sure it would be epic!

hopeful girl

kkcg

Note to self

The sunshine burns. Beads of sweat collecting down my neck. Mmmmm coffee please? Loving the cold coffee or a simple hot cup of cappuccino with chocolate waffle at the side - Starbucks? Yeah. Summer is here, though there are little rain showers here and there. But still I'm loving the summer this year, though I haven't been to the beach, but seriously TAKE ME TO THE BEACH!

A friend once tweeted, "I'm always alone, therefore I'm a loner?"

I replied, "Note to self: I'm not alone, I'm just single." :)

Being alone is not a negative thing. I love to be alone. I love to travel and explore unknown streets from a foreign land only with a map and camera. Shop alone. Study alone. With no one to worry about. With no one telling you where to go and what to do. Being alone, you're always on the right track. No time is wasted, just more time to explore. But I know being with somebody is a different story. I'd like to say, "Let's get together and get lost in an adventure." Take pictures together. Eat great food together. Watch football games together. Somebody to talk about anything with and arguing with little things. And simply get lost together. Only you and that somebody. Experiencing life together with laughter and shared memories.

Someday...just someday say "With some perfect boy, in some perfect field."

So, JUMP!

hopeful girl
kkcg

Sun, water, and a scoop of ice cream makes a dreary afternoon fun.

Sometimes it is best if there is nothing to do. The past days, I've been trying to figure out what's the best thing to do. I tried sleeping which only makes me more tired. Watching tv - not fun at all.

Then just yesterday. I sat on our front porch, I realized it was a perfect day. The sun is in perfect temperature. Not so hot, just perfect. It was a quiet afternoon. All I hear are those fading traffic noise, car honking and screeches outside the subdivision. Still everything was calm and relaxing. The sky was blue and I could see clouds passing by. I see birds resting on a telephone wire across the street. I sat there for a moment thinking "...what if I could fly, I could be then somewhere in the world right now."

Summer is all about fruit shakes and ice cream. I got to have ice cream, the fun it gives. Melting down the cone and then lick - gives actual freshness and well, yeah fun. I love that. What's more fun playing with sprinklers? While sitting, I thought what if I try watering the plants? So, I did. It gave me the feeling of being a kid again. The smell that water and earth gives out was just amazing. It reminds me the smell of fresh cut grass after the rain. LIFE! While watering the plants of course my feet were wet and I love the feeling of it - it was cold and wet and I could feel the dripping tear drops down my ankle. Then suddenly everything was different, the feeling of damp and humid, but still with the perfect sun beaming it gives back the perfect feeling that I felt as I started to sit on the porch that afternoon.

Moreover, my mind was working...open as I allow imagination sink in. I thought of what to type in this blog, I guess having to sit with perfect ambiance could come up with a perfect output. And this is it.

Sometimes I just like to sit on the drive way, with an open mind, and two lazy legs. Feeling the summer wind through my hair and the sun slightly burning my skin.

Sun, water, and a scoop of ice cream makes a dreary afternoon fun. :)

hopeful girl
kkcg

de Abril

It's the 5th day of April. Nothing had happened yet, but I'm pretty sure one of these days I could be on the beach and jumping into the open waters. Or maybe yet be with friends having a coffee one afternoon and talk about anything and everything under the sun. Summer for this year would be short, shorter than I thought. I would be then preparing for my review.

Too many thoughts have been storming in my head, good ones and yes bad ones. Good ones are those things that I want to happen, though I'm just thinking about them it really makes me smile. Recently I've been spending my money on food. I think if ever I can't go to the beach this month, eating will be my last resort. Ha. Oh yeah, those bad ones which are happening with that eer disciplinary thing with school. Just to say out loud again for the last time. "Upholding a tradition is not stupid, but breaking the tradition...now that is stupid."

Can I add something? Neh. :)

Anyway, I'm actually putting on my poetry dress. I hope this one closes this blog with a smile.

Friends turns to lovers

Something we need to understand

Friends turns to enemies

Something we need to forget

"Sorry's" are fluent

Which actually spoken like air

But if really meant

Sometimes we don't care.

But if true love and friends are found

In our hearts it will abound

Whether mistakes are made

We could forget them and fade

Love is more than feeling

Friendship stresses more meaning

Open your eyes as blue skies fills the horizon

Jumping over the fence tasting the quench

Summer with new love and friends

Sweeter it is when all is met.

Hopeful girl

kkcg

A double cheeseburger for me!

Been saying, "As of late, every day has been sprinkled by rain. I just want a ray of sunshine to appear. Please?" but today I see Mr. Sun! I thought summer won't be coming this year. *slaps forehead*

Is this a great time to sing "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy, when skies are grey. You'll never know dear, how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away." ??

Hmm, maybe? But I sung that over a year ago for that stupid guy. So, Mr. Sun is back and it shines over the horizon that I love to see and feel it's warmth all over me.

Oh by the way. You are wondering why this blog is entitled "A double cheeseburger for me!"? Eh, it's because this last weekend it was a double celebration for me. March 26-27, 2011. Yes, remember that date!

> March 26 was the mark of my 22 years of existence, another year older perhaps. But as what I've said, "I'm forever 21" or most likely "Happy to be Twenteen". I thank God for the 22 years of life with HIM, with my family and friends. A life that will always stay mysterious, fun, adventurous, lively, happy and FULL OF L.O.V.E :)

> March 27 was the end of my SCHOOL days. College graduation. 5 years in college was like a snap of a finger. It was like only yesterday when I first entered college and now it's all over. HEAVEN! Freedom! 5 years of hard work, fun and loads of mixed emotions. But still, there a lot of other things that kinda sorta scares me.

Thus, I am here none the less, and ready for this new year! I am 22 and graduated from a degree of Bachelor of Science in Electronics and Communications Engineering. March 26, 2011 and onwards, hello.

still hopeful at 22

kkcg

jump with me and together we will soar :)

März

Hello March! I've been waiting for you for ten months. And I am happy that finally I got to spend another 31 days with you.

March is one of the most awaited month of every year. Why? It's where you will feel the pre-summer sun - basking in it! No more classes. No more waking up early. And all you've got to do is wait until summer season arrives by April. As for me, it's my birth month. Yes, I am turning 22 this month and I am happy about it. Plus, I'm graduating from college too! Isn't that great? And guess what, my graduation day is the day after my birthday. I don't want to say I am counting the days, but actually I let the days count for me.

So yesterday was the last day of my college life, it marked the day that I will never have to go back to school again - to STUDY! Ha. Though I know, there will be a part of me that will make me miss school.

March, what's in store for me? Aside from "I am 22 and graduating" part? I think I've got to wait and see.

I would love to spend a day watching the blue sky horizontally with the city from somewhere I know is relaxing - sa UMA (farm)! HAHA

Hopeful girl
kkcg

Re-blogged

I'm so overwhelmed finding out that there are people out there who are reading my blogs. I might not know you and I'm sure you've been updating my blog-site ever since. I've got 30 written blogs since last year. And to my surprise I found out I have blogs that have been viewed several times not only in the Philippines but also from other countries - yes! So these are some blogs who have been viewed at least 20 times since:

Life's no Fairytale

Metamorphically I Dream

Moving so fast the world spins

Before September Ends

Vorte Bonheur Sera Toujours Pour Moi

Soundtrack of my Summer

These are the top five on the list recorded by my blog stats. I hope you guys can read them, they all came from my crowded mind which I honestly typed for you guys to read. :) Enjoy.