"Opportunities - to strive, to fail, to succeed, to love and to live."

Hello!


It's been a long long while.


Last month I've read in a news paper an interview of several high honored graduate students from elite universities in the Philippines. And there was only one student that I caught my thoughts with, if not to be mistaken he's from Ateneo: "What is waiting for you in the outside world?" with a simple answer he said, "Opportunities - to strive, to fail, to succeed, to love and to live."


Here we are in the land of opportunity, well equipped with young hearts and minds. With every new day the future gets closer, not that it gets any clearer. In the past few weeks after I passed my licensure exam, I'm finding myself in the midst of many conversation regarding the mystery of the future. I got to say, the difficulties of finding jobs, and therefore the frustration creating lack of creativity could possible get you down.


To Strive...
I lived my whole life striving to come out the best, but it wasn't easy, and I know I am not the best. But I can be the best. *wink* I've been there when life kicks out butt. I would be naive to think the butt kicking is almost over. As long as I'm residing on this planet - the earth, my booty will be kicked by people I knew or scheduled to meet, emotions, opportunities etc and yes, I'll have to pick back myself up and kick back. So strive not to be the best, but to strive out the best in you.


To Fail...
Most of us associate the word failure with negative thoughts and feelings. Nobody like to work hard at something and feel like a quitter. BUT, there are times in life when failure is the best option. For me, I realized this when I failed my licensure exam, and hated the feeling of bitter...bitter-er! But I know myself that I'm not the type of person to give up easily and I'm not a quitter. I came to a point where accepting failure of something that's causing us pain, is the best and healthiest option, because I've learned to move on and pick myself up back to start again.


To Succeed...
Entitlement? For some it's a matter of deserving of some reward or benefits... a high position? For me I am entitled as an Engineer. But passing the board exam is just one of the success, there are more exams in life to be done, no matter how much you've done or how successful you've been, there's always more to do, always more to learn, and always more to achieve. I know our world is fast paced, and all about instant gratification, but the best things in this world took tears and sweat. You appreciate it more in the end this way.


To Love...
There's a time and day for every emotion of the rainbow. One is love, the mutual weirdness I'd like to call. Love the feeling of love once love knocks on your door. It's not everyday, it's once in every million heartbeat. Enough said. :]


To Live...
The world will keep twirling if and when you get overwhelmed, so do yourself a favor, and pick yourself up. Feel what you must feel, learn the lessons you will encounter, if you fail stand up and start over and most importantly, GROW. Reality might not give you a hug, but I will - LIFE.

...in the end, it's been known that the people who "make it" are a special breed that consist of the following: self starter, the creative, the dedicated, devoted and disciplined. But even failures makes it.

Opportunity is all around you. I'm learning and relearning these lessons everyday and forever on. Embrace each day! God is with you all the way.

a hopeful girl

kkcg 

TRUST

I often tell myself that I know God has been whispering to me every single day. I tried to make some words that I know what He's been trying to say to me. Though I know, that would be a lie. But not for so long I know I will vividly understand every word He'll say to me. For now, I will feel... I will feel His presence, His Holy Spirit guiding me, holding me.

Worries has been trying to overcome me. I keep on fighting them away. So I ask, "How does someone break the habit of worrying?" Simple understanding the opposite. TRUST. Trusting a God that is seemingly invisible.

hopeful girl
kkcg

Move aside grey skies, say Hello to sunshine! :)

This day has been the best since I’ve stayed here for like 4 months? Since then, the temperature here wasn't friendly, it was humid, HOT and gloomy and though I love waking up to a thunderstorm it doesn’t make it a happy day. The dark clouds took my sunshine away for several days.

But hey!

Today, my sunshine appeared perfectly. This is the only day where I felt the sun kissed my skin. It was perfect. So I embraced the warmth of the morning sun today, letting it beam into my face, arms and just feeling it with an open mind. Seeing clouds float by covering the sun for a quick second – I love that. I feel the heat bouncing off my skin and a breeze of cool wind singing through my hair. It’s like…the BEACH. I love the beach and yes I missed it! For now, I feel like jumping, singing and living.

There really isn’t anything I adore more that the sky. Whether I am glancing at it while walking, staring from a window while clouds roll by, watching the sun kiss the blue goodbye while the black of the night takes over, it really doesn’t matter, I love it all.

Today and forever, I thank God for my sunshine. Let’s say good bye to grey skies for now. I need my sunshine, it’s my weapon and I have won several fights with it. As long as that sun shines in the sky, I know You are there. Constantly guiding, listening and loving. And again, I mean every letter, thought and breathe that comes out every time I say these two words, Thank You.

Thank you Lard for your whispers, smiles and laughs throughout the this day.

And I hope today is nothing less than wonderful for you (reader).

Hopeful girl,

kkcg

Holding Hands

Hi.

It’s been a month?

Yes.

I’m in my room. It’s cold and my feet are trembling and my hands are freezing cold. The room is a mess – like a five year old hair…a mess! So is my hair. :D Just woke up from my quick nap. So I thought I’ll blog first. I miss blogging. So, I’ll try to insert this entry from a busy day. Hope you like it.

God has been holding my hand. And I continue to hang on. It’s been a month and the days are just so fast! Can I do this? Well, I can’t turn back. I’m doing everything that I can, but it seems it’s not enough. Sometimes I want to cry because there’s always a day that I tend forget the essence of this journey. But I keep on telling myself that God is there constantly guiding me, pulling me back whenever I got out of track. Did I mention I started this journey with Him? Now you know.

Every morning I wake up on my own, I look around and I realize that I am not alone. The ray of sunlight passing through the window blinds, I see Him with it. I smile and say, “It’s another day walking with You.” I’ll jump out of bed and act as if it’s in the middle of the day – energize! It’s just so cruel that I can’t see the city below me (damn construction) but I can always look up the sky - blue as ever and reminds me of life that seems to go on and on like the clouds passing by.

For every 86400 seconds, God is constantly telling me, “Every little Prayer counts.”

Not LUCK but PRAYERS Izza! *wink*

Hopeful girl

kkcg

Re-blogged 2: Since I'll be gone

Since I cannot blog that much soon. I'll just be very busy. Here are some blogs that you might like to read - YES YOU! You may have skipped or have just started reading my blogs, so here are some blogs that is close to my heart. Read them and you'll know more about me. :)

Life's no Fairytale

Metamorphically I Dream

Moving so fast the world spins

Before September Ends

Vorte Bonheur Sera Toujours Pour Moi

Soundtrack of my Summer

Note to self

Sun, water, and a scoop of ice cream makes a dreary afternoon fun

Random questions waiting for random answers

86400 seconds

shoebox of photographs

...but yeah, these are just the chosen ones, I've other blogs. Read them if you have time, and I accept comments too. :))

very soon

hopefully girl

kkcg

not luck but PRAYERS

I don't like saying “goodbyes”, I would rather say “see you soon.”

To my readers thank you for reading and following my blogs. This will mark my last blog as of this month and I might not be blogging for the following days...months...but surely if something triggers me to blog, I will!

Right now all I could say is that, I'm facing a new quest and it is something I've been chasing and I'm closing near to it. If before I was just taking tiny steps, now I'm leaping...running...running to reach to the top of that dream. It's all about the choices I have made and to be made, and the chances that I have took and about to take...all of these will only determine my destiny. All I need is strength, confidence, the focus and...not luck BUT PRAYERS. And whatever tomorrow brings, I know God will walk me through it.

My dream is to be your dream, MY DREAM - you know what you are.

I'm hoping, believing and LIVING that dream now.

I know I have MY GOD watching over me. He knows my past, my present and my future. I will ask no more...but only for this dream to be able to live in.

I believe.

I hope.

And I PRAY.

hopeful girl

kkcg

ps: please include me in your prayers...every little prayer counts. :)

My life's in a suitcase

I've got my life in a suitcase ready to run, run, run away...

Remember when you were young you were asked what you want to be when you grow up? I would always say an Architect! When I was

young I'm always fund of drawing buildings, skyscrapers and drawing floor plans for my dream house. Ha. I remember "reading" architecture magazines and I would say "I want this!" - well, I still do that until now. Laugh.

I was in sixth grade where I realized what I really wanted to be...and that is to be an Engineer. I am amazed of how the world hugged technology. Of how math and science changed the way we live. If math is hated by everyone, I for once loved it, though math and I doesn't have that chemistry I wanted, I was still patient and I tried to understand.

Anyway, counting the years, I guess it's been 10 years since that realization. And now, here I am with my life in a suitcase and all I could do is hope and pray. I'm getting nearer than expected. PLEASE! Oh prefixes.This is it. As I step foot on that plane two days from now, there's no looking back, instead focus on what's in front of me. Yes. Focus is the key and Prayer is the answer.

If I have said, "I'll leave everything completely up to God". This time, I'm going to help Him because I'm pretty sure it would be epic!

hopeful girl

kkcg

Note to self

The sunshine burns. Beads of sweat collecting down my neck. Mmmmm coffee please? Loving the cold coffee or a simple hot cup of cappuccino with chocolate waffle at the side - Starbucks? Yeah. Summer is here, though there are little rain showers here and there. But still I'm loving the summer this year, though I haven't been to the beach, but seriously TAKE ME TO THE BEACH!

A friend once tweeted, "I'm always alone, therefore I'm a loner?"

I replied, "Note to self: I'm not alone, I'm just single." :)

Being alone is not a negative thing. I love to be alone. I love to travel and explore unknown streets from a foreign land only with a map and camera. Shop alone. Study alone. With no one to worry about. With no one telling you where to go and what to do. Being alone, you're always on the right track. No time is wasted, just more time to explore. But I know being with somebody is a different story. I'd like to say, "Let's get together and get lost in an adventure." Take pictures together. Eat great food together. Watch football games together. Somebody to talk about anything with and arguing with little things. And simply get lost together. Only you and that somebody. Experiencing life together with laughter and shared memories.

Someday...just someday say "With some perfect boy, in some perfect field."

So, JUMP!

hopeful girl
kkcg

Sun, water, and a scoop of ice cream makes a dreary afternoon fun.

Sometimes it is best if there is nothing to do. The past days, I've been trying to figure out what's the best thing to do. I tried sleeping which only makes me more tired. Watching tv - not fun at all.

Then just yesterday. I sat on our front porch, I realized it was a perfect day. The sun is in perfect temperature. Not so hot, just perfect. It was a quiet afternoon. All I hear are those fading traffic noise, car honking and screeches outside the subdivision. Still everything was calm and relaxing. The sky was blue and I could see clouds passing by. I see birds resting on a telephone wire across the street. I sat there for a moment thinking "...what if I could fly, I could be then somewhere in the world right now."

Summer is all about fruit shakes and ice cream. I got to have ice cream, the fun it gives. Melting down the cone and then lick - gives actual freshness and well, yeah fun. I love that. What's more fun playing with sprinklers? While sitting, I thought what if I try watering the plants? So, I did. It gave me the feeling of being a kid again. The smell that water and earth gives out was just amazing. It reminds me the smell of fresh cut grass after the rain. LIFE! While watering the plants of course my feet were wet and I love the feeling of it - it was cold and wet and I could feel the dripping tear drops down my ankle. Then suddenly everything was different, the feeling of damp and humid, but still with the perfect sun beaming it gives back the perfect feeling that I felt as I started to sit on the porch that afternoon.

Moreover, my mind was working...open as I allow imagination sink in. I thought of what to type in this blog, I guess having to sit with perfect ambiance could come up with a perfect output. And this is it.

Sometimes I just like to sit on the drive way, with an open mind, and two lazy legs. Feeling the summer wind through my hair and the sun slightly burning my skin.

Sun, water, and a scoop of ice cream makes a dreary afternoon fun. :)

hopeful girl
kkcg

de Abril

It's the 5th day of April. Nothing had happened yet, but I'm pretty sure one of these days I could be on the beach and jumping into the open waters. Or maybe yet be with friends having a coffee one afternoon and talk about anything and everything under the sun. Summer for this year would be short, shorter than I thought. I would be then preparing for my review.

Too many thoughts have been storming in my head, good ones and yes bad ones. Good ones are those things that I want to happen, though I'm just thinking about them it really makes me smile. Recently I've been spending my money on food. I think if ever I can't go to the beach this month, eating will be my last resort. Ha. Oh yeah, those bad ones which are happening with that eer disciplinary thing with school. Just to say out loud again for the last time. "Upholding a tradition is not stupid, but breaking the tradition...now that is stupid."

Can I add something? Neh. :)

Anyway, I'm actually putting on my poetry dress. I hope this one closes this blog with a smile.

Friends turns to lovers

Something we need to understand

Friends turns to enemies

Something we need to forget

"Sorry's" are fluent

Which actually spoken like air

But if really meant

Sometimes we don't care.

But if true love and friends are found

In our hearts it will abound

Whether mistakes are made

We could forget them and fade

Love is more than feeling

Friendship stresses more meaning

Open your eyes as blue skies fills the horizon

Jumping over the fence tasting the quench

Summer with new love and friends

Sweeter it is when all is met.

Hopeful girl

kkcg