Thursday, August 19, 2010

Life's no fairytale :D


It's been a long time I haven't blog. I just want to share things that has been clinging in my mind and I can't wait to blog it out! So here's the fuzz, like a month ago a friend linked me an article and it was like a rock that hit me and woke me up from this dream. It was so heart warming and it indeed made me say "Awwwww." I wish that someday I will find that one man that I will truly love.

To the man I will love someday...

I am not in a hurry for you to find me, I am here patiently waiting. I admit that I often wonder if you actually exist. The man that will help me maybe make sense of the world someday.

I remember the days how Disney Princesses met their prince charming's. Every little girl dreams of her perfect, good looking prince charming. At a small age, it is usually the man who saves her from the wrath of her step-mother. Kiss you to break a curse and take you to Neverland.

In third grade, he becomes the man who is every girls crush. The one who sits near you in class and starts bugging you.

Comes high school, he's then the man who takes you to prom and danced with you all night long. As the clock strikes twelve with fading memory, only a picture will once again take you back where it seemed to be a magical night.

At eighteen, he's either the man who you barely knew, a classmate or the hot striker of the college football team. Or simply the shy type boy who was the blockmate of your bestfriend.

Until today in my life, however, I am still unwilling to give my heart away. I am still that little girl who hopes for her prince charming. Someday, my prince will come. Although I ask myself why it has taken you this long to gallop with your white horse and sweep me of my feet? Maybe, just maybe, meeting you someday is even magical than any fairytale story I've read.

To the boys who liked me and loved me and who shared some mild heartbreaks. I am thankful because now I am more wiser. To the man I will love someday, I still questioned your existence. You might be someone I've met along the way or still someone scheduled to meet in a year or two — something I leave completely up to God because I’m pretty sure our story will be epic.

I have yet to meet the man who makes me smile and makes me hear songs like "Grow Old With You" or "A Whole New World". You might be the man who is into music and will teach me guitar and write songs with. An athletic person whom I can play soccer and badminton with. The one who takes photographs and do goofy faces with me as we take pictures together.

Maybe someone I see a future with. Us filling up our visa's and together we travel the whole world, take some awesome pictures, eat awesome food and walk hand in hand as we get lost in an adventure in a beautiful place.

However, I may not be your perfect princess, you may not be prince charming. But as a fairytale goes on together we'll be like Aladdin and Jasmine or Shrek and Fiona. I will amuse you with the things I like to do, make you smile when your European Football team lost the championship. I'll probably steal your T-shirts and use them as mine. Or make you go slightly mad with my real-talking-and-i-don't-want-to-loose-this-argument-with-you-now and my need to fix your collar every time.

I can be your best friend whom you can rant all day but in the end I will be the one you hold and text when everything seems to be awkward.

Messing your hair that would probably get you mad but because I adore you so much. I would love to see your hair falling down your eyes and I have to fix it and hug you tight. I'll go watch action movies with you and tuck under your shoulder as we watch scary movies.

We could go have some coffee and sit - when I say sit we don't talk much but we understand we're enjoying our cup of coffee. By the way I love my coffee cold. I'll respect your nightouts with your boys and treat you best infront of my barkada.

I will never say no when you'll ask me to watch with you some basketball or soccer games and never complain when you cheer loudly cause I will cheer with you at the TV set.

And when it rains, you probably hand me your jacket and cover me from the rain. I'll listen to your music and together we'll go on epic adventures seeing the world and never ran out of things to tell each other along the way.

I won't be waiting for you to sweep me off my feet and take me on a magic carpet ride, because I know I won't need anything like a ride on a magic carpet to fall for you..for who you are - I will love you.

You'll be the man who takes me the way I am, who will laugh as I suddenly burst into a having crazy wild ideas and eat with me as I spend all my cash on food.

You'll be that someone I envision a future with. Living an American dream or living in a cute little house with guppies running across the lawn. Having to be the stage and a oh so loud cheerful parents in our son's or daughter's soccer game. And I keep hoping that maybe someday when we find each other, you will become that someone whose smile I wake up to in the morning and the last one I speak to every night.

So to the man I know does exist, here I wait. Fingers crossed and palms held together, I hope that you’re out there somewhere, waiting for me, too.

A hopeful girl
kkcg

Friday, August 13, 2010

ella adorable

It's been a while since my last post. I guess I was just busy with school.

school..not adorable.

You want to know what I meant for adorable? ...let me put it this way:

Isn't it adorable if ella said good things about you? Telling you I Love You, while behind those dark brown eyes is a smile that says "Hello Sunshine!" It was indeed funny that I actually fell with ella's warm words and even made me smile like "Hello Sunshine!" But I guess all these things are just made up for ella to make me think we're enemies again. I guess we're still going to stay good friends after all ella never sincerely said I Love You. Now, the way I actually look at ella is someone whom I can trust after all we're good friends. I really understand why ella wore that...thing. I so love ella. :D if only I told ella that it really looked good on her. Oh well, ella es totalmente une chenne! Really.

So, do you get what I meant for adorable now? I guess, not. Even me I still get confused while trying to finish this PATHETIC blog! Just a hint: I didn't really mean to be that goody goody good girl. Think, it only means one thing - LOSER.

I don't believe I just wrote my first hate blog.
oh dear...

kkcg